You Belong To Me
Title: You Belong To Me
Author: The Empress
Pairing: Ryan/Colin
Rating: G-Fluff Mush
Disclaimer: I don't own these beautiful people, I just love how they make me feel!!!!
Dedicated to Everyone who LOVES Ryan and Colin and LOVE what they mean to each other!!! The Empress will be off to happy dreamland!!
A touch.
A gentle caress.
I awake.
There is a soft white fuzzy haze around me as I rub my eyes. A shadow at the end of my bed. I blink and it is gone.
Faint music playing softly in the background. A song that is familiar, but I do not know the name of.
It draws my attention to a note on the nightstand.
"You belong to me."
See the pyramids along the Nile,
watch the sun rise on a tropic isle,
just remember darlin all the while...
"Why are we here Ryan?" I ask again. Ryan hasn't spoken much to me the entire trip. He has a most serene look. A faraway place he has gone to in his mind and he has yet to open the veil and let me share. His large hand is resting softly on top of mine and a quiet sense of calm settles over me as I look out over the ocean. It is beautiful here. But it is more beautiful sitting in his presence. He doesn't need to say much, I realize. His peaceful smile calms my nerves and I lean into his shoulder, resting my head there gathering its warmth, fore I am suddenly chilled. The music continues to play somewhere in the distance. I feel it as it penetrates my soul. What is the name?
See the market place in Old Algiers,
send me photographs and souvenirs,
just remember when a dream appears ...
I awake and he is gone. I search and search for him and he is not there. I can't remember when he left. A hollow emptiness eats away at my soul, my body craves him. I need him like the air I breathe. Where is he? I fall asleep again and he touches me, I open my eyes and he is there, looking down at me. He kneels before the bed and brushes his fingers softly across my cheek. I lean into the caress and he smiles. He closes his eyes as if he remembers something. The music grows louder now and I almost swoon at how it affects me. How I feel it radiating from his body. I need to know. And yet, I've known it all along. I blink my eyes and he is gone once again, leaving me reaching reaching, for the fuzzy white haze, the soft glow that envelops me.
I'll be so alone without you.
Maybe you'll be lonesome too,
and blue....
A tear.
A sigh.
An ache inside.
"What is it Ryan?" I ask him one day. It doesn't strike me as odd that he hasn't spoken. He looks at me with such sadness that seeps its way inside the very fiber of my being. I feel him. I turn my eyes to the sky as we stare at each other across the distance. We are not very far apart, but it seems like miles as I look into the eyes of a stranger I have known all of my life. I need him close. I need him close enough to share the same air, the same breath, but it's the space between that keeps us apart.
Fly the ocean in a silver plane,
see the jungle when its wet with rain,
just remember till you're home again, you belong to me.
He comes to me at night. And it is all I can remember. I hear the music far away and it makes sense to me now. I know why we are here. I know why we are drawn. I know why we live and I know why we died.
"Is this heaven?"
Ryan smiles softly, every range of emotion playing across his features, looks at me a moment longer, and takes my hand.
I understand now.